Cowering In a Rut

Being stuck in a rut is like reading everyday but never turning the page. Ruts are easy to get into and hard to get out of. First we have to realize we're stuck. You can use the word 'security' and 'rut' to describe the same situation sometimes. Security has a price.

I've been working on a project for a couple of years and it's still terribly fragmented. There are exciting components, challenging chapters, and life changing concepts typed into documents, scribbled onto hundreds of pieces of paper. What is lacking in the equation? My willingness to turn the page in my life.

Albert Einstein ~ “Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.”

I suppose I'm not insane by that standard. I don't expect different results. I am well aware of my hesitation to start a new chapter. I am also well aware that I'm not getting any younger.

I've heard people say that change is slow, two steps forward and one step back. I suppose that's true but I still think there is a demarcation line, a day when you changed your mind, changed your expectations.

Humanity is like a puzzle, all the pieces are there but they aren't in the right place to produce the picture it is capable of. I wrote in my journal one morning “pain and defeat accepted for yourself is accepted for humanity”. In that vein it would seem that cowering in a rut short changes humanity and not just yourself.

Marianne Williamson wrote ~ “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.”

This morning there are no doubt millions “playing small”, cowering in a rut. What would the world be like if today that began to change?